I want to start this off saying that I know my shot was unethical and unacceptable. I rattled at first light this morning, and 2 minutes later, here comes a 6 point. He was 20 yards broadside and I just watched him. But I could only see his one side. He moved on and stopped at a scrape 40 yards from my stand, turning his head, showing me he was no 6 point. In fact he was the biggest buck I have pictures of on this particular property. I though, no I missed my one opportunity at this deer, well he came circling back around and stopped facing me at 20 yards. I'm not looking for people to tell me that I don't belong in the woods, and it was a stupid decision because I already know that. I know what I did was stupid, and I would love to have the shot back. But I decided to draw on him, so I didn't miss my opportunity. He was still facing me, and I said to myself. "I'm gonna wait until he turns broadside." I had all the time in the world. This is my 2nd year bowhunting, And I have never seen a buck this big while hunting. I had my pun on his chest facing towards me, even though I was going to wait for him to turn. That second, my mind was fogged. My emotions and nerves overtook everything. I shot him in the chest facing me. As soon as I shot, I couldn't believe that I would do something that unethical. I rushed the shot, and the moment. I am shooting 45 pounds. He ran 45 yards and stopped for 10 seconds, and then trotted off. I am unexplainably ashamed of my shot. If I waited 30 seconds, and I would be sitting behind a giant right now. I have not gone to look for him get, and my plan is to wait until 1:00. I shot him at 6:00 A.M. Is there any chance I will find him? Is there a chance I hit something like an artery or anything? I don't want you to lie to me, and make the situation better than it is, but I don't want people bashing and ripping my actions. I already know that it is common sense not to take that shot. I am looking for a realistic opinion on my situation, and maybe a little bit of hope. Thanks guys. this is him.